♪ Funding for this program was provided by a grant from Exxon Corporation By this station and other public television stations and the National Endowment for the Arts ♪ ♪ [fiery orchestral music in a minor key] ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ [slow, melancholy music] ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ [applause] ♪ [faster, busier music] ♪ ♪ Potage crème aux perles.

♪ ♪ Potage crème aux perles.

♪ ♪ ♪ (female singer) ♪ Écrevisses à la bordelaise.

♪ (majordomo) ♪ Écrevisses à la bordelaise.

♪ ♪ Find something better than that!

♪ ♪ Alors...langoustines grilles sauce aux huîtres.

♪ ♪ Langoustines grilles sauce aux huîtres.

♪ ♪ ♪ Faisan braise au porto.

♪ ♪ Sick of pheasant... canard!

♪ (female singer) ♪ Canard farci sauce Savoie.

♪ ♪ Too many sauces.

♪ (female singer) ♪ Palombes rôti es nature?

♪ (majordomo) ♪ Palombes rôti.

♪ (female singer) ♪ Gâteau d'amandes au miel.

♪ ♪ Gâteau d'amandes au miel.

♪ ♪ One bottle of Montrachet, two bottles of Romanée Conti.

♪ ♪ That is all.

♪ ♪ Don't forget the camellias.

♪ ♪ Oh, yes, from the greenhouse, one fresh camellia ♪ ♪ for his dressing table every morning.

♪ ♪ Oui, Ma'moiselle.

♪ ♪ A centerpiece of Christmas roses for lunch, ♪ ♪ of green orchids for dinner.

♪ ♪ Don't forget the bell.

♪ (female singer) ♪ Oh, yes, have the gatekeeper ri ng the bell all night, ♪ ♪ should the sleigh be lost in the storm.

♪ ♪ Thank you.

♪ ♪ You all may go.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ No, I cannot understand why he has not arrived yet.

♪ ♪ ♪ Has no message come?

♪ ♪ ♪ They left the village at dawn.

♪ ♪ Perhaps they stopped on their way ♪ ♪ to let the storm die down.

♪ ♪ My guest is not one to let a storm stand in his way, ♪ ♪ and Karl should know the road blindfolded.

♪ ♪ ♪ I shall have him dismissed if they are lost.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ The snow is so deep, it is hard on the horses.

♪ ♪ Oh, I shall die if anything happens to him!

♪ ♪ My heart, my heart, I can wait no longer.

♪ ♪ ♪ You have not eaten today.

♪ ♪ I shall not until he comes.

♪ ♪ My heart, my heart, I can wait no longer.

♪ ♪ ♪ Shall I read to you?

♪ ♪ ♪ Yes, Erika,♪ ♪ read to me.

♪ ♪ ♪ Here it is.

♪ ♪ "Oedipus": ♪ ♪ "Woe, woe is me, ♪ ♪ "sorrowful that I am!

♪ ♪ "Where am I?

♪ ♪ "Where am I going?

♪ ♪ Where am I ca st away?"

♪ ♪ You do not know how to read.

♪ ♪ You have never known what love is!

♪ ♪ "Woe... ♪ "woe is me, ♪ ♪ "sorrowful, sorrowful ♪ ♪ "that I am!

♪ ♪ "Where am I?

♪ ♪ "Where am I going?

♪ ♪ Where am I cast away?"

♪ [book thuds] ♪ ♪ Why do es he not come?

♪ ♪ ♪ Good night.

♪ ♪ ♪ Even now you will not speak to me!

♪ ♪ ♪ Go, go.

♪ ♪ Good night.

♪ ♪ [slow, dramatic music in a minor key] ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Is it still snowing?

♪ (Erika) ♪ Yes, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Look, look well, deep into the woods.

♪ ♪ Don't you see the light of lanterns?

♪ ♪ No, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ ♪ Go to bed.

♪ ♪ I shall wait alone.

♪♪ ♪ ♪ Must the winter come ♪ ♪ so soon?

♪ ♪ ♪ Night after night ♪ ♪ I hear the hungry deer ♪ ♪ wander weeping in the woods, ♪ ♪ ♪ and from his house of brittle bark ♪ ♪ hoots the frozen owl.

♪ ♪ Must the winter come so soon?

♪ ♪ ♪ Here in this forest, ♪ ♪ neither dawn nor sunset ♪ ♪ marks the passing of the days.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ It is a long winter here.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Must the winter come ♪ ♪ so soon?

♪♪ ♪ so soon?

♪♪ ♪ so soon?

♪♪ [applause] [applause] ♪ [light percussion and flute] ♪ Listen!

They are here!

♪ ♪ ♪ I can see th e lights!

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ He has come.

♪ ♪ He has come!

♪ ♪ Go and call all the servants.

♪ ♪ Light up th e courtyard.

♪ ♪ I shall wait here.

♪ ♪ ♪ And Erika, let me be alone with him ♪ ♪ when he comes in.

♪ ♪ [music building to a crescendo] ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Do not utter a word, ♪ ♪ Anatol.

♪ ♪ Do not move.

♪ ♪ ♪ You may not wish to stay.

♪ ♪ For over twenty years, ♪ ♪ in stillness, in silence, ♪ ♪ I have waited for you.

♪ ♪ ♪ I have always been sure, I have always known ♪ ♪ you would come back to me, Anatol.

♪ ♪ I have scarcely breathed ♪ ♪ so that life should not leave its trace ♪ ♪ and that nothing might change in me ♪ ♪ that you loved.

♪ ♪ Alone, apart, unseen, ♪ ♪ I have waited for you.

♪ ♪ ♪ Oh, how dark, how desperate, how blind ♪ ♪ to let the days go by unmarked, unheeded!

♪ ♪ How endless, how lonely, ♪ ♪ how wrong to rob a beating heart ♪ ♪ of time and space!

♪ ♪ Beauty is the hardest gift to shelter, ♪ ♪ harder than Death to stay.

♪ ♪ All this I have done for you.

♪ ♪ ♪ Now, listen, listen, ♪ listen well: ♪ ♪ ♪ Unless you still love me, ♪ ♪ ♪ I do not want you to see me, Anatol.

♪ ♪ Without love, ♪ ♪ do not dare look in my eyes ♪ ♪ because all change, ♪ ♪ all change begins ♪ ♪ when love has died, ♪ ♪ when love has died.

♪ ♪ Tell me, Anatol, do you love me?

♪ ♪ Do you still love me ♪ ♪ as once you did?

♪ ♪ For if you do not, ♪ ♪ I must ask you to leave my house ♪ ♪ this very night!

♪♪ ♪ this very night!

♪♪ ♪ [applause] [applause] ♪ Yes, I believe I shall love you.

♪ ♪ [sudden, fast music] ♪ Ah no, ah no, ah no!

♪ ♪ My God, who are you?

♪ ♪ ♪ Impostor, cheat!

♪ ♪ Help me, someone help me!

♪ ♪ It is not he!

It is not he!

♪ ♪ I do not know him!

♪ ♪ I never have seen him!

♪ ♪ Have him put out of the house!

♪ ♪ ♪ Help me, help me upstairs.

♪ ♪ I think I shall faint.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Who are you?

♪ ♪ Why did you come here?

♪ ♪ You must leave at once!

♪ ♪ But I did not lie.

♪ ♪ I am Anatol.

♪ ♪ When my father died-- ♪ When your father died...?

♪ Oh, no!

♪ ♪ Poor Vanessa!

♪ ♪ After so many dreams, after so long awaiting!

♪ ♪ Oh, how unfair a game life can be ♪ ♪ when Death can tally the score at will.

♪ ♪ Why did you not let her know?

♪ ♪ Why did you not write her?

♪ ♪ ♪ All through my youth, I heard that name, "Vanessa."

♪ ♪ Like a burning flame, ♪ ♪ it used to scorch my mother's lips ♪ ♪ and light my father's eyes with longing.

♪ ♪ Now that I am alone, I am driven here ♪ ♪ to meet at last the woman who haunted so my house, ♪ ♪ Vanessa!

♪ ♪ But who are you?

♪ ♪ Sometimes I am her niece but mostly her shadow.

♪ ♪ Now you must leave.

♪ ♪ You heard what she said.

♪ ♪ ♪ You are not going to send me out into the storm again!

♪ ♪ Tell her who I am, ♪ ♪ and she will let me stay the night.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Do not touch it!

♪ ♪ She cannot bear the sight of mirrors.

♪ ♪ ♪ Was the supper laid for him?

♪ ♪ ♪ Ah, Romanée Conti!

♪ ♪ My father loved th is wine.

♪ ♪ May I light th e candles?

♪ ♪ I, too, love good food an d wine, ♪ ♪ but my father lost his fortune dreaming, ♪ ♪ while my mother bought subtle poisons ♪ ♪ to destroy his dreams.

♪ ♪ Now I can only drink the wine of others.

♪ ♪ ♪ Will you join me fo r supper?

♪ ♪ That place was not set for me.

♪ ♪ Besides, it is not with me ♪ ♪ that you come from so far to drink your wines.

♪ ♪ Nor was I the one who was expected.

♪ ♪ ♪ I am the false Dimitri, the Pretender.

♪ ♪ Be my Marina!

♪ ♪ ♪ You never smile.

♪ ♪ ♪ Sit down.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ This is a wild and solitary place ♪ ♪ to pass one's youth in.

♪ ♪ It is as if we had been ♪ ♪ always alone!

♪ ♪ ♪ What is your name?

♪ ♪ ♪ Erika.

♪♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ And then?

♪ ♪ ♪ He made me drink too much wine.

♪ ♪ I showed him to his room.

♪ ♪ I stayed with him all night.

♪ ♪ The very night you met him?

♪ ♪ The only night.

♪ ♪ Erika, Erika, you so proud, so pure!

♪ ♪ I was neither proud nor pure that night.

♪ ♪ Once he kissed me, ♪ ♪ it seemed so natural to obey.

♪ ♪ ♪ What could you have seen in such a man?

♪ ♪ ♪ When I was young, ♪ ♪ a man came into the house like a conqueror, ♪ ♪ carrying his love with pride.

♪ ♪ But this Anatol, ♪ ♪ oh, th is cautious knight ♪ ♪ who entered our house li ke a thief, ♪ ♪ what kind of man is he?

♪ ♪ If I only knew, I would also know ♪ ♪ why I both hate and love him.

♪ ♪ And now will he do the honorable thing?

♪ ♪ Yes, he will marry me if I so wish, ♪ ♪ but I do not want his honor so that mine be saved.

♪ ♪ I want his love so that my love stay aflame!

♪ ♪ Does he not love you?

♪ ♪ He says he does, ♪ ♪ but I feel he is incapable of love.

♪ ♪ His words are as easy as his kisses.

♪ ♪ It is too late to measure or to weigh.

♪ ♪ You must do what must be done.

♪ ♪ Must I?

♪ ♪ Has not each woman the right ♪ ♪ to wait for her true love to come, ♪ ♪ the first and last, the only love?

♪ ♪ Ah, if I were sure of him, ♪ ♪ I should fly to him ♪ ♪ and leave behind the world to burn.

♪ ♪ But no, he does not tremble as I do ♪ ♪ when our eyes meet, ♪ ♪ nor has the mem'ry of that night ♪ ♪ erased the mocking laughter from his lips.

♪ ♪ You do not love him, then?

♪ ♪ Oh, yes, oh, yes, ♪ ♪ I love someone ♪ ♪ like him!

♪ ♪ ♪ My poor child, ♪ ♪ love never bears the image of those we dream of.

♪ ♪ When it seems to, beware of the disguise.

♪ ♪ But then, Grandmother, ♪ ♪ to hold what I feel is of small worth, ♪ ♪ have I the right to break another woman's heart?

♪ ♪ Whose heart?

♪ ♪ ♪ Hers, of course.

♪ ♪ Have you not noticed?

♪ ♪ She loves him more than I do ♪ ♪ because she loves him blindly.

♪ ♪ The fool!

♪ ♪ ♪ No, you are not as good a skater ♪ ♪ as your father was!

♪ ♪ ♪ But I'm a luckier man, perhaps.

♪ ♪ ♪ Good morning, Erika, why didn't you join us?

♪ ♪ ♪ Because you forgot to ask me.

♪ ♪ Did I?

♪ ♪ Ah, good morning, Baroness.

♪ ♪ ♪ Save your breath.

♪ ♪ She has become so old ♪ ♪ that she only understands the language of the young.

♪ ♪ ♪ Are we not young?

♪ ♪ We lost our innocence long ago, my dear.

♪ ♪ Good morning, good morning.

♪ ♪ Good morning, Doctor.

♪ ♪ What a pretty pair you made skating on the lake.

♪ ♪ I saw you, I saw you.

♪ ♪ You must breakfast in a hurry, ♪ ♪ or we shall be late for chapel.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Ah, how good it is to see this house alive again.

♪ ♪ Yes, dear Doctor.

♪ ♪ Perhaps the day is near ♪ ♪ when I shall unveil the mirrors and the portraits.

♪ ♪ Ah, sir, this used to be a gay house once.

♪ ♪ Ah, the day may be near to open all the rooms ♪ ♪ and give the greatest ball this county has ever seen.

♪ ♪ Do you remember, as a young girl, ♪ ♪ the garden parties and the games?

♪ ♪ Oh, yes, ah, yes.

♪ ♪ I shall light the lake with Chinese lanterns.

♪ ♪ And the hills with bonfires.

♪ ♪ I shall call the peasants ♪ ♪ with their accordions and fiddles.

♪ ♪ Do you still remember our country dances, Milady?

♪ ♪ Are you too old to dance, then, dear Doctor?

♪ What impertinence!

♪ "Under the willow tree..." ♪ ♪ Come, come, let us show them who is the best dancer here.

♪ ♪ "Under the willow tree, ♪ ♪ "two doves cry, two doves cry.

♪ ♪ "Under the willow tree, ♪ ♪ "two doves cry, ahhh oh!

♪ ♪ "Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ "Whither sh all we fly?

♪ ♪ "Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ "Whither shall we fly?

♪ ♪ "The wood has swallowed the moon.

♪ ♪ "The fog has swallowed the shore.

♪ ♪ The green toad has swallowed the key to my door."

♪ ♪ Ah, charming, charming.

♪ ♪ I wish I could compete with you, Doctor.

♪ ♪ Nonsense, young man, give me your hand, ♪ ♪ and I'll show you the steps!

♪ ♪ Right foot first, ♪ ♪ back, ♪ ♪ then left, ♪ ♪ forward, ♪ ♪ slide.

♪ ♪ One, two, three, reverse, ♪ ♪ two, three.

♪ ♪ "Under the willow tree, ♪ ♪ "two doves cry, two doves cry.

♪ ♪ "Under the willow tree, ♪ ♪ "two doves cry, ahhh oh!

♪ ♪ "Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ "Whither shall we fly?

♪ ♪ "Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ "Whither shall we fly?

♪ ♪ "The wood has swallowed the moon.

♪ ♪ "The fog has swallowed the shore.

♪ ♪ The green toad has swallowed the key to my door."

♪ ♪ Charming, charming.

♪ ♪ Charming, charming.

♪ ♪ Char...ming.

♪ ♪ Char-- ♪ ♪ ♪ No, no!

No, no!

♪ ♪ What do they teach you in school today?

♪ ♪ ♪ Stop this nonsense, and hurry to your breakfast!

♪ ♪ We shall be late for chapel.

♪ ♪ ♪ Do you play a good game of chess, sir?

♪ ♪ I'm afraid I don't play at all.

♪ ♪ ♪ How the world has changed!

♪ ♪ I can't imagine what young people do ♪ ♪ in the evenings nowadays.

♪ ♪ [laughing] (Vanessa) ♪ Erika, ♪ ♪ I am so happy.

♪ ♪ I know now it was he I was waiting for.

♪ ♪ I kept my youth for him.

♪ ♪ He sent me his younger self.

♪ ♪ Anatol!

♪ ♪ Anatol!

♪ ♪ Aunt Vanessa, don't be fooled by a name.

♪ ♪ It is another man who has come.

♪ ♪ No, Erika.

♪ ♪ He carries his father's destiny with him, ♪ ♪ and he knows it.

♪ ♪ He knows it!

♪ ♪ ♪ What makes you say that?

♪ ♪ I must tell you what happened out skating.

♪ ♪ What happened?

♪ ♪ He stopped me and looked in my eyes, ♪ ♪ and then he said, ♪ ♪ "Christmas is near, and the winter will pass.

♪ ♪ "It is time for me to leave now, ♪ ♪ but I cannot find the strength to go."

♪ ♪ Did he say that?

♪ ♪ ♪ Yes, those very words.

♪ ♪ And then?

♪ ♪ Then I asked, "What makes you so weak?"

♪ ♪ What did he say?

♪ ♪ He took my hand-- ♪ ♪ He took your hand?

♪ ♪ --and he answered, ♪ ♪ "I came as a guest.

♪ ♪ I am foolish enough to want to leave as the master."

♪ ♪ ♪ Did he say that?

♪ ♪ Ah, yes, Erika!

♪ ♪ ♪ Then?

♪ ♪ There was a long silence.

♪ ♪ ♪ And then?

♪ ♪ Ha, ha, ha!

♪ What a curious niece I have!

♪ ♪ ♪ Dear me, here is the pastor.

♪ ♪ I must hurry.

♪ ♪ Good morning, Pastor.

♪ ♪ We shall soon be ready.

♪ ♪ Have some coffee with us.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Oh, how happy ♪ ♪ I feel this morning, ♪ ♪ how happy!

♪ ♪ how happy!

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Did you hear her?

♪ ♪ You must speak out, or you will lose him.

♪ ♪ It is his love I want ♪ ♪ and not his capture.

♪ ♪ Even for love, one must fight.

♪ ♪ Should he not fight for mine?

♪ ♪ Vanessa or I, it is the same to him.

♪ ♪ He saw your money before he met your eyes.

♪ ♪ And still, and still, ♪ ♪ the way he kissed that night!

♪ ♪ ♪ How can I forget those kisses?

♪ ♪ He is the man of today.

♪ ♪ He only sees what is offered him.

♪ ♪ He will choose what is easier.

♪ ♪ Why waste my time on him, then, ♪ ♪ when I am dying of love?

♪ ♪ ♪ Help, help!

Save me from their talk!

♪ ♪ ♪ Between a doctor and a minister, ♪ ♪ a man will lose both body and soul!

♪ ♪ ♪ Anatol, I must speak to you.

♪ (Anatol) ♪ What is it, then?

♪ ♪ ♪ Is it true what you said to Vanessa this morning?

♪ ♪ ♪ I?

This morning?

♪ ♪ For God's sake, stop lying!

♪ ♪ Aha, the little sphinx ♪ ♪ begins to clamor for her answers.

♪ ♪ I have the right to claim them!

♪ ♪ Have you not told me I am free?

♪ ♪ Listen to him, Erika.

♪ (Erika) ♪ Of course, of course.

♪ ♪ Be patient with him.

♪ ♪ I shall not bind you ♪ ♪ if you are not bound by mem'ries.

♪ ♪ How could I forget that night, ♪ ♪ the night that made you since so dark and bitter?

♪ ♪ What has become of you since then?

♪ ♪ Careful, Erika, or he will leave you.

♪ (Anatol) ♪ I asked you before, ♪ ♪ and now, with your grandmother as witness, ♪ ♪ I ask you again.

♪ ♪ ♪ Will you marry me?

♪ ♪ ♪ What will you do if I should answer...no?

♪ ♪ What do you want me to say, ♪ ♪ that I should slash my throat like this?

♪ ♪ Or spend my days as a monk, chanting, ♪ ♪ "Te Deum laudamus?"

♪ [laughs] ♪ I hate your laughter!

♪ ♪ ♪ What a sentimental child you are!

♪ ♪ You belong to another age.

♪ ♪ Has then the human heart so changed?

♪ ♪ ♪ Outside this house, the world has changed.

♪ ♪ Life is swifter than before.

♪ ♪ There is no time for idle gestures.

♪ ♪ I cannot offer you eternal love, ♪ ♪ for we have learned today such words are lies.

♪ ♪ But the brief pleasure of passion, ♪ ♪ yes, and sweet, long friendship.

♪ ♪ ♪ Who can resist your gentle beauty, Erika?

♪ ♪ Oh, how happy ♪ ♪ we could be together!

♪ ♪ Erika!

♪ ♪ Do you know Paris and Rome, ♪ ♪ Budapest and Vienna?

♪ ♪ The velvet rooms for jeweled suppers, ♪ ♪ the coast of Spain for solitude, ♪ ♪ the gilded Grand Hotels for dancing, ♪ ♪ the glass and marble stations ♪ ♪ for goodbyes?

♪ ♪ This we could share together ♪ ♪ if you accept my love.

♪ ♪ And who knows?

♪ ♪ My love might last forever, ♪ ♪ Erika.

♪ ♪ Life is so brief.

♪♪ ♪ Life is so brief.

♪♪ ♪ [applause] [applause] ♪ ♪ Ah, what a meager offer yours is!

♪ ♪ ♪ I wish I could be blinded by your love.

♪ ♪ Instead, I see you only too well, ♪ ♪ too well.

♪ ♪ ♪ What is your answer, then?

♪ ♪ Hurry, now!

♪ ♪ ♪ We must not keep the dear pastor waiting.

♪ ♪ ♪ Here is your shawl, Mother, and your prayer book.

♪ ♪ ♪ Doctor, will you give her your arm?

♪ ♪ Yes, Baroness.

♪ ♪ Call the servants for chapel.

♪ ♪ Erika, aren't you ready yet?

♪ ♪ Do not wait for me, Aunt Vanessa.

♪ ♪ I shall join you later.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Are you ready?

♪ ♪ Come!

♪ ♪ [bells chiming] ♪ ♪ Even to your old doctor, you will no longer speak.

♪ ♪ How will you call him when the time comes?

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ May I take your arm, Baroness?

♪ ♪ ♪ You must call me Vanessa.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ [sobbing] ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ (household, in chapel) ♪ In morning light, let us rejoice.

♪ ♪ Thy love is our salvation.

♪ ♪ [Erika's leitmotif, countermelody in minor key] ♪ In praise of Thee we raise our voice.

♪ ♪ [Erika's leitmotif] ♪ Now let us sing in the light, ♪ ♪ our smiles trembling in the heart.

♪ ♪ [Erika's leitmotif] ♪ Our fears lost in the night, ♪ ♪ joyously this day we start.

♪ ♪ [Erika's leitmotif] ♪ For joy created from Thy tears ♪ ♪ fills hearts with adoration.

♪ ♪ [Erika's leitmotif, building to crescendo] ♪ And in Thy light, we shed all fears.

♪ ♪ [Erika's leitmotif] ♪ Amen.

♪♪ ♪ ♪ No, Anatol, ♪ ♪ my answer is no!

♪ ♪ ♪ Let Vanessa have you, ♪ ♪ ♪ she who for so little ♪ ♪ had to wait so long!

♪♪ [sobbing] ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ The Count and Countess d'Albany.

♪ ♪ ♪ Almost everyone is here now.

♪ ♪ Go and help inside.

♪ ♪ I'll watch the door.

♪ ♪ ♪ Ah, those lovely furs... ♪ ♪ ♪ so soft, so sweetly scented.

♪ ♪ This is all I shall ever know of such women.

♪ ♪ Boo!

♪ You rascal, you!

♪ ♪ I never knew you had a soul!

♪ ♪ What an evening!

♪ ♪ What women, what champagne!

♪ ♪ But what am I doing with two glasses?

♪ I must have been carrying one to some charming lady.

♪ Who was she?

♪ ♪ Oh, well.

♪ ♪ [glass crashes] Sorry!

♪ ♪ I should never have been a doctor, Nicholas.

♪ ♪ A gentleman, a poet, that's what I am.

♪ ♪ A naked body, what is it to a doctor?

♪ ♪ We see them every day.

♪ ♪ But under a chandelier, ♪ ♪ with the right music, the right perfume, ♪ ♪ a naked arm, a shoulder, ♪ ♪ oh, God... ♪ ♪ I lose my mind!

♪ ♪ ♪ Did you see me dance with Ma'moiselle Doriat?

♪ ♪ ♪ She's not so young, I know that, ♪ ♪ ♪ a bit too plump, perhaps, a bit too tall for me, ♪ ♪ but oh, so light on her feet, ♪ ♪ so soft, so blonde.

♪ ♪ Tra la la la, tra la la, la la la la la la.

♪ ♪ "Doctor, dear Doctor, ♪ ♪ not quite so fast, dear Doctor!"

♪ ♪ ♪ Her blue scarf floating over my head.

♪ ♪ "Doctor, dear Doctor, ♪ ♪ not quite so fast, dear Doctor!"

♪ ♪ Her bosom heaving under my chin.

♪ ♪ "Doctor, dear Doctor, ♪ ♪ not quite so fast, dear Doctor!"

♪ ♪ ♪ Oh, la, la!

♪ ♪ I must stop drinking.

♪ ♪ I still have to announce the en-gagement.

♪ ♪ ♪ Yes, Nicholas, yes, ♪ ♪ they chose the old family doctor ♪ ♪ to make the announcement, ♪ ♪ a sweet idea, very touching, ♪ ♪ ♪ very touching.

♪ ♪ ♪ Good heavens, where is my speech?

♪ ♪ I shouldn't have drunk so much.

♪ ♪ I shall muddle up everything.

♪ ♪ ♪ Will you lend me your comb, Nicholas?

♪ ♪ ♪ Ve-ry touching, ♪ ♪ ♪ ve-e-ry touching, ♪ ♪ ♪ touching.

♪ ♪ ♪ There you are.

♪ ♪ Yes, yes, I am ready.

♪ ♪ Don't worry.

♪ ♪ I know it all by heart.

♪ ♪ "Ladies and gentlemen..." ♪ ♪ Oh, be quiet, Doctor.

♪ ♪ Can't you see how upset I am?

♪ ♪ They will not come down.

♪ ♪ Zut alors.

♪ ♪ We shall announce the engagement without them.

♪ ♪ ♪ I quite expected it of Mother, ♪ ♪ but Erika, why, why?

♪ ♪ What will people think, my own niece?

♪ ♪ ♪ A little shy, a little shy, that's all.

♪ ♪ Please, please, Doctor, you go up.

♪ ♪ She will not open the door for me.

♪ ♪ She will not answer.

♪ ♪ ♪ I will see what I can do.

♪ ♪ ♪ "Doctor, dear Doctor, ♪ ♪ not quite so fast, dear Doctor!"

♪ ♪ ♪ At last I've found you.

♪ ♪ What is wrong, Vanessa?

♪ ♪ ♪ I feel so weak, Anatol, so afraid.

♪ ♪ Afraid of what, my darling?

♪ ♪ Why will not those two come down?

♪ ♪ They sit up there like brooding harpies ♪ ♪ ready to feed on carrion.

♪ ♪ Do not be afraid.

♪ ♪ Erika will come, I know.

♪ ♪ She promised me she would.

♪ ♪ Oh, why, then, have they built this wall of silence ♪ ♪ all around my happiness?

♪ ♪ Forget, forget.

♪ ♪ I like you most when you forget and smile.

♪ ♪ What is there I do not know?

♪ ♪ Could I have been wrong for 20 years?

♪ ♪ Is there something you have not told me, Anatol?

♪ ♪ ♪ Love has a bitter core, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ Do not taste too deep, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ Do not search into the past.

♪ ♪ He who hungers for the past ♪ ♪ will be fed on lies.

♪ ♪ Let your love be new ♪ ♪ as were we born today, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ My love has only begun.

♪ ♪ Love has a bitter core, Anatol, ♪ ♪ but let me taste this bitterness with you.

♪ ♪ I shall never take too much ♪ ♪ if you will offer all... ♪ ♪ Do not search into the past... ♪ ♪ If you will offer all.

♪ ♪ ...or you will feed on lies.

♪ ♪ My love cannot begin nor grow nor die, ♪ ♪ for it has always been, ♪ ♪ always, always been.

♪ ♪ For it has always been.

♪ ♪ For it has always been.

♪ ♪ For every question, let my kiss be the answer.

♪ ♪ Ah, but is a kiss an answer?

♪ ♪ I did not ask for whom you were waiting that night ♪ ♪ when first we met.

♪ ♪ For you, Anatol, for you, my dearest.

♪ ♪ No, Vanessa, for I was only born that night.

♪ ♪ For you, Anatol, for you.

♪ ♪ Like the burning phoenix you soared ♪ ♪ out of the ashes of my shattered dreams.

♪ ♪ Then scatter the ashes to the wind, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ Follow my flight, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ Follow, follow my flight, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ I follow.

♪ ♪ Follow.

♪ ♪ Ah... ♪ ♪ I follow!

♪♪ ♪ [applause] ♪ [applause] ♪ [applause] ♪ ♪ Nothing to worry about.

♪ ♪ A little frightened, perhaps.

♪ ♪ She will come down, she says, ♪ ♪ but later.

♪ ♪ Ah, well, let us proceed then.

♪ ♪ We can wait no longer.

♪ ♪ Call our people in.

♪ ♪ Have them stand by the door.

♪ ♪ ♪ They should begin their dances right after the announcement.

♪ ♪ ♪ What did she really say?

♪ ♪ She would not speak to me.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Silence, everybody, silence, please.

♪ ♪ Ladies and gentlemen, ♪ I have the great honor, as an old friend of this noble, distinguished family, which for many years has been a shining example of all that is great in the traditions of our country to announce the engagement of Baroness Vanessa... ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Now let us drink to the happy couple!

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Ma'moiselle, ♪ ♪ Ma'moiselle Erika!

♪ ♪ Speak to me!

♪ ♪ What can it be?

♪ ♪ ♪ It is nothing, nothing, really.

♪ ♪ Shall I fetch the Doctor?

♪ ♪ No, please, do not tell anyone.

♪ ♪ I shall come in at once.

♪ ♪ May I bring you something?

♪ ♪ No, thank you.

♪ ♪ Leave me now.

♪ ♪ I wish to be alone.

♪ (guests) ♪ Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ Whither shall we fly?

♪ ♪ ♪ Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ Whither shall we fly?

♪ ♪ ♪ Where shall we sleep, my love?

♪ ♪ Whither shall we fly?

♪♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Erika!

Erika!

♪ ♪ Where are you going, Erika?

♪ ♪ I saw her running to the lake!

♪ ♪ Please, someone stop her!

♪ ♪ Oh, if only I could call someone... ♪ ♪ ♪ someone, someone.

♪ ♪ Erika!

♪ ♪ What are you doing here?

♪ ♪ Erika, Erika!

♪ ♪ Are you out of your mind?

♪ ♪ ♪ Erika!

What of Erika?

♪ ♪ She must be saved.

♪ ♪ Someone go after her ♪ toward the lake.

♪ Hurry, please hurry!

♪ ♪ What has happened?

♪ ♪ Anatol!

Anatol!

♪♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Why did no one warn me?

♪ ♪ Could everyone be as blind as I was ♪ ♪ not to see the sorrow in her face?

♪ ♪ [horn sounding] ♪ ♪ It is almost dawn, ♪ ♪ and they have not found her yet.

♪ ♪ Erika, Erika, what made you do this?

♪ ♪ ♪ You are her doctor and her lifelong friend.

♪ ♪ Is it possible you suspected nothing?

♪ ♪ I have always known I am a bad doctor.

♪ ♪ Now I know I am a bad poet as well, ♪ ♪ for I have never learned to read the human heart.

♪ ♪ And you, ♪ ♪ you must surely know so mething, ♪ ♪ but oh, no, yo u will not speak.

♪ ♪ ♪ Whatever have I done to you ♪ ♪ to have to bear your awful silence?

♪ ♪ Oh, I would hate you if you were not my mother.

♪ ♪ Do not talk like that.

♪ ♪ Why can they not find her?

♪ ♪ The whole village is looking for her.

♪ ♪ She cannot have wandered very far ♪ ♪ in this cutting cold.

♪ ♪ What if they do find her?

♪ ♪ She will not be alive.

♪ ♪ ♪ Come, come, you must not despair ♪ ♪ nor jump to conclusions.

♪ ♪ ♪ It may all be very innocent.

♪ ♪ They found no trace of her steps near the lake, ♪ ♪ and the ice was unbroken.

♪ ♪ Why must the greatest sorrows come ♪ ♪ from those we most love?

♪ ♪ Erika, Erika, ♪ ♪ my sweet Erika!

♪ ♪ ♪ Why have you done this, why?

♪ ♪ You who are only as wild as the wild dove ♪ ♪ and no prouder than the rose?

♪ ♪ ♪ I love you, Erika.

♪ ♪ I have always loved you ♪ ♪ as if you were my own child, ♪ ♪ my own daughter.

♪ ♪ Why break my heart just now ♪ ♪ as it started to beat again?

♪ ♪ Come back, come back, Erika!

♪ ♪ ♪ [horn sounding] ♪ ♪ ♪ There, look!

♪ A group of men is coming to ward the house.

♪ ♪ Do you suppose... ♪ ♪ Yes, they are carrying her.

They have found her!

(Vanessa) ♪ Anatol, Anatol, is she alive?

♪ ♪ ♪ Yes, oh, yes, she is alive.

♪ ♪ Thank God, oh, thank you, God.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ There, there, gently.

♪ ♪ ♪ Doctor, how is she?

♪ ♪ She seems to be all right.

♪ ♪ Send them all out.

♪ ♪ ♪ You had better go now.

♪ ♪ Thank you all.

♪ ♪ You will find wine downstairs ♪ ♪ and a blazing fire in the kitchen.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Oh, in what terror I have been!

♪ ♪ Anatol, Anatol... ♪ ♪ ♪ Poor Vanessa, what an endless night!

♪ ♪ Come into my arms, my dearest.

♪ ♪ Yes, weep, weep in my arms.

♪ ♪ ♪ Where did you find her?

♪ ♪ ♪ On the path to the lake.

♪ ♪ She was hidden in a small ravine ♪ ♪ like a wounded bird.

♪ ♪ She must have fallen, ♪ ♪ for her frost-white dress was torn ♪ ♪ and damp wi th blood.

♪ ♪ There she lay in the snow ♪ ♪ like a Christmas rose.

♪ ♪ The bitter cold had glazed her lovely face ♪ ♪ into deep and opaque sleep.

♪ ♪ ♪ The faint beat of her heart ♪ ♪ was like an undeciphered signal ♪ ♪ from another world.

♪ ♪ I lifted her into my arms, ♪ ♪ warmed her against my breast.

♪ ♪ I called he r name ♪ ♪ and kissed he r eyelids.

♪ ♪ Only then she sighed ♪ ♪ a little.

♪ ♪ ♪ How is she?

♪ ♪ Leave me alone with her.

♪ ♪ She is not ready to see you yet.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Anatol... ♪ ♪ Yes, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ ♪ Anatol, tell me the truth!

♪ ♪ Yes, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ Do you know why she did this strange thing?

♪ ♪ Why should I?

♪ ♪ Anatol, you must not lie to me.

♪ ♪ Look me in the eyes.

♪ ♪ Does she love you?

♪ ♪ This much I know: She does not love me.

♪ ♪ Swear!

♪ ♪ I swear.

♪ ♪ How do you know?

♪ ♪ Did I not know that you loved me ♪ ♪ long before you spoke?

♪ ♪ But Erika, she chose to judge me ♪ ♪ before she could learn to love.

♪ ♪ Can I believe you?

♪ ♪ Ask her yourself.

♪ ♪ She never lies.

♪ ♪ Take me, take me away from this house, Anatol!

♪ ♪ Yes, Vanessa, every day of waiting ♪ ♪ roots you deeper in the past.

♪ ♪ For the sorrows of others ♪ ♪ raise dark walls between our hearts.

♪ ♪ Oh, help me tear these bonds.

♪ ♪ Brief is the day for blindness ♪ ♪ and brief the day for madness.

♪ ♪ Ah, help me take flight.

♪ ♪ Only the mad, only the blind can fly!

♪ ♪ Take flight!

♪ ♪ ♪ Nothing to worry over.

♪ ♪ She will be all right.

♪ ♪ ♪ No, no, not yet.

♪ ♪ ♪ She wants to be alone with her grandmother.

♪ ♪ But why?

♪ ♪ ♪ Come, come, we must not upset her now.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Grandmother!

♪ ♪ ♪ Yes, Erika.

♪ ♪ ♪ Do they know?

♪ ♪ How can I tell?

♪ ♪ ♪ Why did you wish to die?

♪ ♪ I was with child.

♪ ♪ With child!

♪ ♪ I never reached the lake.

♪ ♪ ♪ By the ravine, I fainted.

♪ ♪ ♪ And your child?

♪ ♪ ♪ It will not be born.

♪ ♪ [cane thuds] ♪ ♪ ♪ Grandmother, ♪ ♪ why are you leaving me?

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Grandmother!

♪ ♪ Grandmother!

♪ ♪ Answer me!

♪♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ By the time we arrive in Paris, ♪ ♪ the new house should be ready.

♪ ♪ Think of it, to live in Paris!

♪ ♪ How I shall miss you both!

♪ ♪ We shall miss you too, dear friend.

♪ ♪ I know you'll make a happy couple.

♪ ♪ Yes, we shall have ♪ ♪ the most beautiful house in Paris.

♪ ♪ ♪ I am almost ready.

♪ ♪ How lovely you look!

♪ ♪ Be sure that they put everything in the sleigh, ♪ ♪ and tell them to be careful with the hatboxes.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ For every love, there is a last farewell, ♪ ♪ for each remembered day, an empty room.

♪ ♪ Many other children I bring into the world, ♪ ♪ but no one takes the place of those that are lost.

♪ ♪ ♪ You too were once a child, Vanessa.

♪ ♪ Do you remember the mumps, ♪ ♪ the chicken pox, the scarlatina?

♪ ♪ How many times I kissed your burning cheek ♪ ♪ and fought the grinning dwarfs ♪ ♪ leering at the foot of your bed!

♪ ♪ ♪ Will you ever think of your old doctor now, ♪ ♪ now that the pulse of your heart ♪ ♪ takes you so far away... ♪ ♪ from him?

♪♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ And you, my friend, what are you mumbling about?

♪ ♪ Oh, my dear, I just wanted to tell you-- ♪ ♪ Yes, yes, dear Doctor.

♪ ♪ Come, you go and help Anatol.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Erika, sit down here next to me.

♪ ♪ ♪ Now that I am married and going to Paris, ♪ ♪ who knows when we shall see each other again!

♪ ♪ ♪ You can live here as long as you wish.

♪ ♪ As I have told you, ♪ ♪ I have willed the house to you, ♪ ♪ but do not tell Anatol, please.

♪ ♪ No.

♪ ♪ We may not come back for years.

♪ ♪ We may never come back.

♪ ♪ I chose to stay.

♪ ♪ I am not afraid.

♪ ♪ But you are too young to stay here alone.

♪ ♪ You, too, were young when you came back here.

♪ ♪ Oh, but that was different.

♪ ♪ ♪ Someone must take your place now.

♪ ♪ She cannot be le ft alone.

♪ ♪ ♪ I shall think of you always.

♪ ♪ Do take care of my azaleas and the parakeets, ♪ ♪ and don't forget... ♪ ♪ Don't worry, Aunt Vanessa.

♪ ♪ It shall all be as if you were here.

♪ ♪ ♪ Erika, before I leave, ♪ ♪ you must tell me the truth about that night.

♪ ♪ I have told you the truth.

♪ ♪ No, you are hiding something from me, ♪ ♪ and now I must know.

♪ ♪ I cannot live with that thorn in my heart.

♪ ♪ ♪ There was no reason for it.

♪ ♪ It was a foolish thing to do.

♪ ♪ It was the end of my youth.

♪ ♪ ♪ Tell me, Erika, was it because of Anatol?

♪ ♪ Anatol?

Oh, no, no!

♪ ♪ Swear!

♪ ♪ I swear.

♪ ♪ Then what was it?

♪ ♪ Do not torment me, Erika.

♪ ♪ You would laugh if I were to tell you ♪ ♪ as I have laughed since then.

♪ ♪ Why then?

♪ ♪ ♪ I thought I loved someone who did not love me.

♪ ♪ But whom?

♪ ♪ The young pastor, perhaps?

♪ ♪ The gamekeeper?

♪ ♪ ♪ What does it matter?

♪ ♪ It was a foolish thing.

♪ ♪ It is all over now.

♪ ♪ Perhaps he was not the man for you!

♪ ♪ Yes, I know now.

♪ ♪ He is not the man for me.

♪ ♪ ♪ You must hurry ♪ ♪ if we are to reach the station before dark.

♪ ♪ ♪ Bring me down my things, Clara.

♪ ♪ ♪ Oh, do not cry, silly thing.

♪ ♪ ♪ There was a time, Erika, ♪ ♪ when I thought it would be with you ♪ ♪ that I should leave this house.

♪ ♪ Please, forget me.

♪ ♪ Make her happy, Anatol.

♪ ♪ Remember that she loves you the way I never could.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Let me look around once more.

♪ ♪ ♪ Who knows when I shall see this house again!

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ To leave, to break, ♪ ♪ to find, to keep, ♪ ♪ to stay, to wait, ♪ ♪ to hope, to dream, ♪ ♪ to weep and remember.

♪ ♪ To leave... ♪ ♪ To love is all of this... ♪ ♪ ...to find.

♪ ♪ ...and none of it is love.

♪ ♪ The light is not the sun, ♪ ♪ nor the tide the moon.

♪ ♪ To leave, to break, ♪ ♪ to find, to keep, ♪ ♪ to stay, to wait, ♪ ♪ to hope, to dream, ♪ ♪ to weep and remember.

♪ ♪ To leave, to break, ♪ ♪ to find, to keep, ♪ ♪ to stay, to wait, ♪ ♪ to hope, to dream, ♪ ♪ to weep and remember.

♪ ♪ To leave, to break, ♪ ♪ to find, to keep, ♪ ♪ to stay, to wait, ♪ ♪ to hope, to dream, ♪ ♪ to weep ♪ ♪ and remember, ♪ ♪ and remember.

♪ ♪ and remember.

♪ ♪ To leave, to break... ♪ (principals) ♪ Ah, Anatol, how hard it will be, ♪ ♪ the backward road of regret!

♪ ♪ To find, to keep... ♪ (principals) ♪ Ah, poor Vanessa, ♪ ♪ only to die empty handed!

♪ ♪ To stay, to wait... ♪ (principals) ♪ Erika, Erika, ♪ ♪ only to kiss the impostor!

♪ ♪ ♪ To weep, to hope... ♪ (principals) ♪ And you, old people, may death release you ♪ ♪ before you too clearly remember ♪ ♪ or cease to dream!

♪♪ ♪ ♪ Goodbye, Erika.

♪ ♪ ♪ Goodbye.

♪ ♪ Be happy, Aunt Vanessa.

♪ ♪ Please, be happy.

♪ ♪ ♪ Goodbye, Mother.

♪ ♪ Goodbye, Erika.

♪ ♪ When I see you again, ♪ ♪ perhaps you will have learned to smile.

♪ ♪ I hope you will still be smiling ♪ ♪ when I see you again.

♪ ♪ Goodbye, Anatol.

♪ ♪ Goodbye.

♪ ♪ Goodbye, goodbye, my dear ones.

♪ ♪ Please, please, no tears!

♪ ♪ Come in the sleigh with us, my friend.

♪ ♪ We shall drop you in the village.

♪ ♪ I shall wave goodbye from here.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Anatol!

♪ ♪ ♪ Anatol.

♪ ♪ No, I must never say that name again.

♪ ♪ ♪ Lucky those people ♪ ♪ who are so anxious to believe!

♪ ♪ Do you really think she believes what I said?

♪ ♪ ♪ Grandmother?♪ ♪ Oh, I forgot that you will not speak to me either now.

♪ ♪ ♪ I am truly alone!

♪ ♪ ♪ Will you please cover all the mirrors ♪ ♪ in this house again.

♪ ♪ What, Ma'moiselle?

♪ (Erika) ♪ Yes, just as before.

♪ ♪ Begin with these now.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ From now on, I shall receive no visitors.

♪ ♪ Tell the gamekeeper that the gate to the park ♪ ♪ must remain locked at all times.

♪ ♪ Thank you.

♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ ♪ Ah, that is good.

♪ ♪ ♪ Now it is my turn to wait.

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